Thursday, September 07, 2006
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wow. its feels so great.so great to not be acknowledge by u.all my efforts to please u and to console u.is all gone to waste isnt it? now that u've got them back, i'm just another stepping to stone to help u out of ur problems rite?and now? i'm like submerged under the water or something.i want to now. just how much my friendship means to u.if not i'll just not waste my time anymore.u keep saying that *insert grp name* dun accept u.but wad abt me? by saying that, dun u noe u're making me feel freaking worst.everyday, i have to whip us sumthink just to make u happie. make u have the confidence again. but wad abt MY confidence?every practice. without any reason or wad-so-ever, ppl just come up to me and give me a long face.but wad can i do? i'm not the most well-liked person u noe.i'm fat, loud, dumb, say jokes that are not even farnie.u keep saying i dun understand.ask urself. have u ever given me the chance to? congrats on getting back ur friendship.lets have a celebration. to celebrate my outcasts days again.period. (i've been such a fool)anw, band practice wad bad today.
tbones had to sit in the front row.
attendence was seriously poor. gotta think of a way to resolve it.
had sectionals in the office.
mr. chia asked me to conduct then he took my tbone and started messing around with it.
then had sectionals outside the office. not that bad.
i think the prob is, they find it hard dealing with the rhythm.i think the rest (like pitching and tone) are ok. so, ya. not discouraged.
i finished 11 pages of my chem. yay. and i finished geog. yay.
nope. not haha-ing. not in the mood. seriously.
kinda not looking forward for tmr after wad happened.imawate.the fool =)
ima. 5:06 AM
